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A Truth

You are my other half.

posted by HPL (eh pea ell) @ 6:04 PM 0 comments

My Numb Head

I really ought to start up a seperate blog for this or something. But it's such a pain to try and remember etc etc, so I'll keep clogging up this one with in the meantime... I'm such a lazy bastard...

Anyway, the point of all this is to record a new something that's been bugging me lately. Starting about two weeks ago the numbness spread up to my left ear first and then the left side of my head. Do you have any idea how annoying it is to have that bit of your ear just outside the ear hole go numb? It's like there's something constanly poking at you there, but there isn't really. Funny how the absense of feeling can be a feeling of it's own isn't it? The facial numbness is the area around the cheek and down to the jawline, up no higher than the eye really and doesn't reach as far as the nose. Neither it nor the ear are constant, but they do recurr with regularity and stay for goodly lengths of time.

The other associated (?) thing started up, I'd say, last wednesday. Not numbness this time, no, this time it's pain. It's a throbing or more accurately "pulsing" pain that starts up just behind the temple on the left side, and then shoots down and along above my top teeth. Sometimes it goes down into the jaw, but not usually. It comes and goes, but I've had episodes of it pretty much every day since it started, though today it hasn't made it's appearance yet. And no, it's not a migraine. It's nothing like a migraine, and hasn't got any of the associated migraine symptoms. The feeling especially isn't migraine. That is a dull ache, a brain throb. This is more like something just under the surface, and each pulse is like a little stab, an electric shock of a tiny lighting bolt that zaps down the side of my head. I feel like I must glow when it's on. Last night, lying in bed, feeling it pulse, it was like I could feel the skin pulling tight with each pulse.

So there we go, recorded for the ages! My numb head.

posted by HPL (eh pea ell) @ 9:23 PM 0 comments

Thoughts and things

I was driving home from work two days ago and I had a sense of something...it came on so strong, and even now it lingers in my mind. I could (and still can) smell the place, feel the day, the clothes I'm wearing in my head (if that makes any sense), and feel your presence with me.

The day is a winter's day. Not a cold february, more of a grey March, late in winter, not yet spring. We are in Sunnysides and it's a saturday. I can see the watery light coming through the window and shining on the wood floor by the Astrology books, and that is the smell I can smell. I love the scent of that store. In my image we're standing close together, looking at books, laughing and having fun. I think we buy something.

Then there's a jumble of images and feelings that follow. One is that we end up at Picolo Grande for hot chocolates. But more than that, I can see us in a living room. You're flopped in one chair reading and I'm flopped in another doing the same. I think you're in grey sweats and a bulky sweater, your comfy clothes. I'm in jeans and a button-down shirt and T. It all feels like "home".

I still now have the scent of Sunnyside in my mind, the image of watery sunlight in the window, and you with your legs over the arm of a chair.

I like that image.

posted by HPL (eh pea ell) @ 9:14 PM 0 comments

What's my Soul?

You Are a Visionary Soul

You are a curious person, always in a state of awareness. Connected to all things spiritual, you are very connected to your soul. You are wise and bright: able to reason and be reasonable. Occasionally, you get quite depressed and have dark feelings. You have great vision and can be very insightful. In fact, you are often profound in a way that surprises yourself. Visionary souls like you can be the best type of friend. You are intuitive, understanding, sympathetic, and a good healer. Souls you are most compatible with: Old Soul and Peacemaker Soul

posted by HPL (eh pea ell) @ 8:42 PM 0 comments

What does my pig mean?

The Draw a pig pesonality test!
So what does my pig say about me?

Toward the top of the frame, you are positive and optimistic.
Facing left, you believe in tradition, are friendly, and remember dates (birthdays, etc.)
With few details, you are emotional and naive, you care little for details and are a risk-taker.
With less than 4 legs, you are insecure or are living through a period of major change.
The size of the ears indicates how good a listener you are. You are a good listener.
The length of the tail indicates the quality of your sex life. You have a great sex life.

Do I believe a word of it? Heck no! It's a shockwave flash pig for goodness sake....but it's still fun to do....

posted by HPL (eh pea ell) @ 10:03 AM 0 comments

Famous last words...

Your Famous Last Words Will Be:

"I dunno, press the button and find out."

Yup, that sounds like me.

posted by HPL (eh pea ell) @ 9:56 AM 0 comments