Saturday, August 28, 2004

I settled for less...

You asked me a question yesterday.

"Why? What did you see in her?"

At the time, I didn't have a decent answer. But I've thought about it since then and really the answer is -- I settled for less.

At the time, I knew we'd never be together. I knew that the one woman who was perfect for me was beyond my reach. So I settled.

I've learned a lot. I know this was part of my path I had to take. I had a lesson to learn here, and I'm glad to be a dad. But the lesson is learned, I think. It's time to move on, well, almost--I can feel it in my bones. It's comming. I know that without what I learned here, what's gone on here, we could never be. But still I've felt bad, wondered if I'd just waited that little bit longer or something...but no, this was the course it had to take.

But I think you knew that already, even when you asked me...

Thursday, August 26, 2004

I Still Want To Hold You

Here I've loved you for so many years
I still want to hold you
Tho' I've seen all your weaknesses and fears
I still want to hold you

In those awkward phases, that we tend to go thru
I still want to hold you
When I seem very distant and there's no talking to me
I still want to hold you

You, you love me for myself
You see things as they are
And with you there's nothing but trying
No deception or lying
I've come to rely on you

So we're getting older, and we've looked much better
I still want to hold you
Well we'll only see what we care to remember
I still want to hold you

When we're sitting in the twilight, taking things slower
I still want to hold you
'Til my last breath, when the lights begin to lower
I still want to hold you

-- Ian Thomas