Random thoughts from a one track mind

71 but always 16

Happy Birthday Mom!
I miss you.

posted by HPL (eh pea ell) @ 4:21 PM 0 comments

Update

It's been just over 24 hours, and it's still there. It's better, but not gone. Left arm is doing better, not so tired or sore or itchy today, but it's still somewhat tired and sore. It was far more work and effort to shampoo my hair today than it should have been, let's put it that way. The left leg is, if anything worse today than yesterday. My thigh feels like it's always tense, always "tight" and it gets worse the more I walk on it. Pins and needles in the foot are also quite regular now. Still no migraine symptoms either.

Hmmm, okay so I guess it's time to contact Dr G. Now, do I phone or do I fax?

posted by HPL (eh pea ell) @ 10:10 AM 0 comments

Recording

Putting it here for lack of a better place to put it and know I'll remember it.

Today, Monday the 28th. Around 9:45 or so, I started to get some migraine prodrome symptoms that seemed a bit different maybe from the 'usual'. Talked to E about it and she suggested that it would be a good thing to write down and mention to Dr G sometime, and she's right. Never bad to have a record.

So what's up? Okay, left arm is feeling 'tired', like I've been flexing it for a long time now or something. I've had this before, but now there's occasional pain in the bicept (which I think I've also had before) and I'm feeling klutzy in the left hand (having minor trouble ripping pages off a calender, working the buckle on my belt, that sort of thing). Left leg (just got up and walked a bit) is also off today, but that's nothing new either.

Vision is also a bit wonky, with lines on the computer screen looking like they're waved/curvy rather that laser straight. No other migraine symptoms so far. No stomach upset, no light sensitivty, no sound sensitivity, no food cravings, none of the usual stuff.

We'll see how long this lasts, and what it turns into. I have to go pick up S's friend tonight at 10:30, so I hope it's better by then!

Check back tomorrow and see what the result is!

Update: As of lunchtime, it's now solidly the left arm and left leg. It was difficult (tiring) to carry a bottle of shampoo at the store.

posted by HPL (eh pea ell) @ 11:16 AM 0 comments

All quiet on the one track mind

It's been a while since I've written here. Frankly, I've been sorta drifting the last while or so. I've not really had anything that I thought was worth saying. Hmmm, and thinking about it now, I can't see this post really changing that.

Maybe I'm not drifting so much as floating, following the swirls of the universe as the one thing moves to the desire of the one mind. I don't really think too much about the future any more, other than in vague directions, distant goals and someday hopes. I don't really think too much about the past any more either. It'd done and over and brought me to my here, and now. If anything I think of the past in some of the same general vagueness that I use for the future.

So is this living in the now? Living for today? I guess so.

The thing is that I really feel like I've lost my passion, whatever it may have been. I don't feel driven to anything anymore. No great highs, no great lows, just an even keel. Maybe it's just that I'm not used to the whole even keel thing. I know for a long time I was hooked on being angry, maybe this is just me free of those encumberances and learning to be who I really am. Maybe I'm finally finding my own true inner voice.

Or maybe I'm just taking an in-body sabatical. An in-body experience if you will.

Leave me a message at the beep and I'll get back to you when I have a brain...
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posted by HPL (eh pea ell) @ 1:29 PM 0 comments