Changes in direction
I got to thinking the other day about how big small things can really be. I mean how what seems small and inconciquential at the time can have huge (and I do mean huge) effects later on. The example I was thinking of was regarding E, and what her life might have been like if I'd not stuck my nose in at that juncture when I did. If I hadn't pursued that need to talk to her and get to knw her (again), where would she be? And where would I be for that matter?I suspect that she would have moved on to another job somewhere else as all students seem to at our place. I hope she'd have been happy. And me, I wonder if I'd have gone to California like I did? I suspect I would have but I also suspect that I'd have ended up doing myself in down there too. Either that or I'd have ended up a frustrated, bitter old man wondering what he'd missed in life if things had gone differently.
It's difficult to imagine how someone so important, someone who so fills my thoughts might have just passed by like that...I mean, she's now such a huge part of my life, and such an influence and teacher. And but for that talk, I'd never have known her. Terrifying really when I think about it, so I don't like to.
I found the card that she gave me when I left and I almost cried when I read it, talking about our friendship and how she hoped we'd stay in touch. I thought of all that has passed in that short span of time since then and I'm just so amazed and astounded. That has only been five years, so what does the next five hold? Your future is never a thing of the past. And the promise of the future for us is something I look forward to with all my heart.
(composed and posted on my pilot...neat eh?)
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