What do you want from me?
So what's the deal? I don't get it. For how long now have you ignored me, ignored anything I've asked, forgotten or negelected or just down right didn't care about anything to do with me. But now, now you've suddenly taken an interest? Now you've decided that it's time to leap on anything I say and make phone calls and search the net and scour the world for information? And even then you don't do a good job of it since you never bothered to listen to what I had to say in the first place.Where is this coming from, all of a sudden, out of the blue? I don't get it. I have two immediate reactions. The first is to wonder what you want. If you're acting this way it's for a reason. You never do anything for anyone else without a reason. What do you think you're going to get? Something, that's for sure.
The second reaction is that I know it's temporary anyway. It's not going to last, so there's no point in getting worked up about it, either for good or for bad. I know that's probably a fatalistic view, thinking that you could never change, that you could never really mean it, but I've been fooled enough times (by you, by others) that I'm tired of getting taken in. Sorry, but I just don't trust you.
It seems like the one lesson I'm here to learn is to not trust anyone. But when I asked, I was told, no, that's not quite right. That I have to learn to "trust wisely". Hmmmm, trust wisely eh? Now I have to figure out what the hell that means....
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